can't...form...sentences.

i feel so weird right now.

i'm like...really anxious, ridiculously confused,
a little angry? (mostly at myself...a little at you),
and i have a LOT of questions i want to ask,
but i don't know if i'm "supposed" to.

i'm in such weird positions
and they're all very uncomfortable.

before i blow...let me just get this out...
FJDA;SLKDFJ;ADSHG; STOP!!
i don't get what you're not understanding...
it's like telling someone "i haaate talking on the phone",
having them reply "oh, that's fine. i totally understand."
and then they keep...calling you...on the phone.
i'm sorry...i really don't know how else to say it.

anyways...
while i'm improving all the things about myself i can't deal with,
i'm finding i have trouble with some of them.
i find myself doing and saying things i shouldn't have,
but not until after i already did.
maybe i'm trying to control my actions too much.
i'm probably making things far too complicated.
old habits die hard.

i have a stomachache.
i need to go write somewhere i don't have to be cryptic
so i can actually try to sort this out before i screw myself.

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