back to the drawing board.

alright, my "finding the silver lining" idea was not so successful.  of course, nothing in life is that easy.  this shit takes work.  i'm cracked out.  i had a week of living on my parents' couch and then i went back to work and.. tomorrow will be my 3rd day off since that day i jumped back on my feet.

i mean, all things considered, i can validate myself.  with so much going on and no time to work through it, anyone would be a little cracked out.  but a quick blog trying to find the good parts won't cut it and bitching&moaning to the same person over and over again is clearly only going to make it worse.

tonight's goal:

putting down the lap top, soaking my feet in hot water, and breaking out an actual pen & paper.  i refuse to let it build until i blow or continue this streak of negativity that i can't even stand.  at least you can get away from me.  just.. give me a little space.  i'll bounce back.  i always do.

things to look forward to:

• my bank statement :D
• my day off tomorrow :D
• seeing my mom for the first time since i crawled off her couch from surgery :D
• urban interactive :D
• my birthday & related plans :D
• calling on these 2 apts i found tonight :D
• hearing back about a job i really want :D
• moving out :D  (it will be soon.. i can feel it.. it's coming.)
• the booze cruise :D
• new friends :D

..whatdya know.. already in a better mood :)

actually.. i'm in a great mood.  i found my fix :)

ooh, still need the hot water soak though.