i'm desperately trying to keep my head from exploding. i've worked very hard at keeping my anger under control, but the sound of a bad situation only continues to get worse and i'm coming close to losing it. the only solution to my problem includes spending a lot more money. i hate feeling trapped. i despise it.
i head back to school tomorrow. [bill, don't look...] i graduate in 62 days. [/bill] and where am i at career-wise? well, i'm jobless (note: i'm not complaining - i know i could up and get a job... just stating) and a little clueless as to where it is i'm headed.
after trying to suppress the need to have a script in my hand, that's proven impossible. and now i'm on this undeniable path to doing something with eating disorders and i can't figure out what that is. i keep thinking about M1 and M2 telling me they were both marketing majors. now one's a LICSW and the other is a psychologist. B was a real estate agent. he decided to go back to school for psych when he was 25ish, and even then had no idea he would end up in the ED field; that was probably furthest from his plans.
i'm 21. i feel like with the skills i have at this very moment, i could be making an absurd amount of money. but where...how...and with which of my 3 loves (only 2 of which i would consider passions and it's the 2 i haven't been working on my cert. for since last june...). i'm confused and i'm stuck.
i'm not so worried about finding my path as i am making money to support myself until find it. i constantly freak out about my serious financial issues, and yet have far too much pride to grab a job in retail. $7.5o/hr is more than i make sitting here worrying about money, but i'm so much better than that. i'm far beyond jobs that high school sophomores go out for. that is so 6 yrs ago. i would be open to serving again. i've started looking into that. but even so, i could be making money in retouching and i feel like i'm missing a connection...
i head back to school tomorrow. [bill, don't look...] i graduate in 62 days. [/bill] and where am i at career-wise? well, i'm jobless (note: i'm not complaining - i know i could up and get a job... just stating) and a little clueless as to where it is i'm headed.
after trying to suppress the need to have a script in my hand, that's proven impossible. and now i'm on this undeniable path to doing something with eating disorders and i can't figure out what that is. i keep thinking about M1 and M2 telling me they were both marketing majors. now one's a LICSW and the other is a psychologist. B was a real estate agent. he decided to go back to school for psych when he was 25ish, and even then had no idea he would end up in the ED field; that was probably furthest from his plans.
i'm 21. i feel like with the skills i have at this very moment, i could be making an absurd amount of money. but where...how...and with which of my 3 loves (only 2 of which i would consider passions and it's the 2 i haven't been working on my cert. for since last june...). i'm confused and i'm stuck.
i'm not so worried about finding my path as i am making money to support myself until find it. i constantly freak out about my serious financial issues, and yet have far too much pride to grab a job in retail. $7.5o/hr is more than i make sitting here worrying about money, but i'm so much better than that. i'm far beyond jobs that high school sophomores go out for. that is so 6 yrs ago. i would be open to serving again. i've started looking into that. but even so, i could be making money in retouching and i feel like i'm missing a connection...
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